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So we were approved for our new apartment this week, although we are not moving until the first of November, but it's still very exciting that we know where we are moving to already. It's a really cute complex called Orchard Cove, you can check it out on Apartmentsinutah.com if you want to see our new living space, we are definitely moving up, we are going from my mom's one bedroom one bath basement, to 1350 sq ft. with 3 bed's and 2 bath's, oh the more I talk about it the more glamorous it sounds. I am moving up there about 2 weeks before Teague comes home so if any of my friends want to come stay with me during the first two weeks, I would love for you to keep me company, and Teague is worried about me staying up there alone, so it would make him happy too! You have plenty of time to let me know, oh and also, if anyone wants to help me move I will have a big pizza party when we get all the stuff up there, because it's like an hour and a half a way, so the fewer trips I have to make, the better.
When we enlisted Teague it seemed like the day would never come for him to actually leave, and then it snuck up on us so fast that I can't believe it actually happened. But yesterday we drove up and said goodbye to his parents, and then his dad Zac and I drove him to the airport, we checked him in and walked to security and there is where I had to say goodbye to my husband for 8 months! I cried and he cried, and Zac was being a stinker and wouldn't let him hold him long enough to say goodbye. It felt so weird to just walk away with out him, and even Zac didn't understand why Daddy walked away and didn't get in the car with us, he kept looking around for him. I was to upset to drive home so I fell asleep on Teague's parents couch, and then when I woke up drove home, feeling weird about him not being here when I got here, thinking about how he won't be walking down the stairs and sneaking in the door to surprise Zac. I cried most of the drive home, but the worst was at bedtime, I was so tired but couldn't sleep, because I couldn't hear him breathing/snoaring, and I burst into tears which lasted a few hours, all I could do is ask God to take care of him, and us, and to bring us together again, I realized how much I truly love him and how he is such a piece of my life, and now my goal is to be in the place in my life that we can be sealed together when he gets home. I hope I can be strong enough for all of this.
I know I only have a few people that read my blog, but I just became a Mary Kay Consultant, and I have my own Mary Kay Web and e-mail now, I am desperate to have anyone who wants a free gift host a party this month and next, please check me out on www.marykay.com/sbarker58723 or e-mail me at sbarker58723@marykay.com
Thanks!!
So I know for sure now, that money does not buy happiness. I thought that getting a lot of money would make our lives better and easier, but no matter what, being married is so hard. I have to adjust myself so much, and having a kid just adds to the chaos. I also realized that I don't like spending money as much as I used to! At least not on myself, I like buying stuff for Zac and going out with my hubby, but I feel bad spoiling myself now. Teague and I just had a really rough night, and a pretty scary fight, things are fine now, but I know that the smallest thing can make or break a relationship, and now I am kind of afraid and feel like I'm walking on egg shells. Not because he scares me or anything, but just because I want to make all of us happy so bad and don't know how when I feel like I don't know what my point here is. I feel like I am the babysitter and that I don't add anything else to the home but that. I need some fun things to do for myself, and for Zac, so that when Teague comes home I'm not so on edge and expecting him to take over or entertain me. Ugh, I don't know what to do with myself right now, I hope that the Spring give me more energy and more ideas! If anyone has any insight into my dilemma, please help!!
